Now we are back to the phase of you avoiding me, as if I don’t even exist. We are back to the phase where you would goof around with other people, be sweet and clingy to your other friends, while I’m at the corner. But things have changed this time. This time I won’t be going around begging for you to notice me. This time I won’t go over your sweet messages saying all those things that I don’t even know if true. I won’t cry, because you don’t deserve my tears. You don’t deserve me spending sleepless nights thinking about what you could be doing, thinking if maybe you are thinking about me too. This time I won’t sulk in the corner. I have changed since you last left me. I will have fun with my friends; do what I have to do. I will take care of myself, be brave and wear a smile. I will strive to be the best that I can be. Well I’m still here for you if you need me. But this time I won’t just wait for you to come back to me when everybody else starts to turn their back on you. This time I won’t.
TGIF. This week has been very stressful. Thesis consultation with my adviser, chemistry lab report that i was doing until that last minute and org activities. I barely slept and i ate nothing but donuts. Not that im complaining though x I really miss home and the smell of clean bedsheets, i miss my mom and my dad, i miss my dogs, and im so glad im going home tom :)
"You belong among the wildflowers. You belong somewhere you feel free"
Found these photos of beautiful wildflowers (they are actually weeds, but i think they are very lovely) that i took ages ago while strolling around the university. It’s been raining really hard all day so i ended up watching hair tutorial videos on youtube, i found viviann vo-farmer’s channel very helpful especially with the heat-less curling techniques. Stay safe and dry everyone!